None of This Was Supposed to Happen

by Funeral Language

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1.
Devolved 04:02
Black bile and indecision Outward and into me A life obsessing wasted over flesh unending We can’t embody holiness Yet we harness reigns That pull us under to a depth that god himself can’t reach And now the choice is All black and gray Remaining vices All fade away In times of war I tend to glorify shame, resulting in a baseless act of lashing out at those close to me. In times of love I will romanticize hate, won't it be fun to dip our bodies in the river of ill intention? Resilience turned to bloodshed Leaves wet with dignity A crimson portrait of the curse that lives inside of me. We can’t be honest without a sense of fearing the Outcome of truth that shatters through our gaslit memories Bury me with open eyes So I can see what’s left Of my legacy Bury me with open eyes I want to see what’s left of my Legacy left bastardized By mouths repeating my last words “For it’s my honor To choose depravity’s fate” Devolved and disgraced
2.
Bloodbath 03:29
They got the signal they could let it go The insurrectionists complicit We thought that they could never sink this low Well here they are and sinking lower Someone once said there’s strength in letting go But I’d rather be an imposition To those who pander to all the unknowns Protecting nothing like the life and soul of Unborn children Making sure not to lead (God forbid) Altruistically We let the men of war control our homes Intoxicated with the vision I can’t exist knowing all that I know Perpetuate and feed the system We’re up against a global circumstance A designation by the government For time and money to be evident They pave the way and line the pockets of the Old white “good guys” For god and country for (Their racist beliefs) For lady liberty Forced her hands down The throats of those who face (Come get us, motherfuckers) Face down hypocrisy I think we’ve got a lot of bleeding to do I think we’ve got a lot of bleeding to do With one hand on the word of your god and the other proclaiming truth Oh, I think we’ve got a lot of bleeding to do I take up space in a Midwest state that’s as red as red can be Where my son gets to hope his mom doesn’t die just to give him a sibling So I exercised my ill-named rights granted by democracy And I took a vote, and what I found wasn't all that shocking By popular vote we will slice up the fortunate sons Give me purpose Give me their destiny Oh how the tables turn When we decide the time and place Their day of reckoning Give me purpose Drain them of everything Let them suffer Let them die alone but publicly Broadcast their bloodletting
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Symptoms 04:48
We can’t escape our own reality Ignoring everything that’s right in front of me A changing face, no one to bother me Wrapped in the chains of endless nights and wasted dreams For now I’ll go into the deepest hole I have ever known Engage the decay Regurgitate and pray Erase memories Of endless terrorizing In younger days of ignorant purity All I wanted was someone to comfort me Until the grave plagues all your daydreams I can’t relate to anything you have to say For now I’ll choke And let your hands around my neck become my hope What have we done? When we’re running out of questions But we’re left with all these answers Take this story from the basement And I’ll share it with the masses I was suffering a symptom in every single dimension Always running from myself with no intended direction But there’s a single choice That I’ll have to make selflessly If I’ll ever understand the depths of humanity Show me a purpose I need a reason for living Show me purpose I need a reason
4.
Wading in this apoplectic haze The weight of the world, the death in your gaze Standing on the edge of callous change Indignant to your success, my shame I found proof Original sin, the snake, and the fruit In wasting our youth Sever the ties Follow procedures We all fall in line Forfeit your rights Embrace the deceiver He wins every time Sever your spine Collapse into pieces We all fall in time Rip out your eyes They see what we teach them What’s real in disguise Resonating misanthropic hate I’ve made up my mind, too battered and bent Saved for those who question my disdain Glamorous doom, repentance inane I refuse To believe in those who doubt The hangman and noose Let ‘em swing Oh how we moved in the breeze Now we’re dancing Before they set fire to the trees The paradox unveiling Everything I am Is what I have to be I ought to be The unsuspecting truth Of what I am and what I want to be It all comes down to who I am or what I am or born to be The unrelenting threat Of who I have to be I ought to be It all comes down to you And who you are and who you want to be Exactly who is who? You are. I am. We are and have to be It all comes down to you To us. To this. To me and everything What’s the final call when all the walls collapse To flee the scene or burn? When the smoke gets in your lungs What exactly do you do? When you’re bleeding out alone What exactly do you do? (Let the fire burn us all. Let the fire cleanse our soul) I’m burning away I’ve wasted my days I cannot believe The things that I’ve said But I’ll admit I’ll admit when I’m wrong I’m taking the stage For the chance to say I know what I did The consequences So I’ll admit I’ll admit that I am wrong Look me in my brand new eyes
5.
How could I do this a thousand times And still look you in the eye with the same excuses I’ve tried to let my faith rely on the strength of better men Who are capable and rid of the vile Worship comes in waves of self entitlement What comes next is calculated carnage Give me the knife Cut my only desire Deaf dumb wasted and tired Tet you’re here choosing union of flesh and a child Here’s my escape from the world I think I’ll stay here for awhile Remember my name, the curse that I owned Carved in this ever fading stone It wasn’t our time, so take this advice Never regret the times you felt alive We both die a million different lives With each word that hangs across the air So putrid with a million different lies It’s me, it’s not your fight It’s a war of broken hemispheres And trenches deep enough to bury light Light comes in abandonment of walls we build Breaking through each selfish brick of solitude Show me the right way down this miserable path Without the need of collapse Of the mind of the body of secrets I’ve kept Here now I’ll give it a chance… But I won’t give it my best So let’s lay this all to rest So we both know that there’s No coming back from this What if I decide that I am done with The daily battle of the vices And self inflict as many wounds As relapses I kept hid There’s no escaping what you’re born with As compulsive as I’m imbalanced You tried your best to be the strength that I Don’t deserve for a lifetime
6.
Come on come on come on Incite the violence that brings the dawn of a new age Every day there are more of us Ready to deconstruct The dehumanizing Classes that shape Who can stay and who is safe Who’s the target Who’s to blame Who’s up next to eradicate Warfare of the lowest kind Based on instinct, fight or flight Lose the badge, lose the guns No political affiliation No more sides, rally cries This is a primal act of war And to the victor go the spoils Shut up shut up shut up There’s no more use in explaining truth to the fetishists The writhing mass of degenerates Red white and blue blood Americans Failure of man The bottom rung of the Class System that they made up The bigots we call patriots Let's call this what it is Unprecedented ignorance Convenient outlet for your hate Mob mentality of the weak Follow blindly commander in creep You bootlicking fucks This is a call to arms Relentlessly pushing walls white supremacy built And cracking Nazi skulls You’d think it would be a unanimous yes When asked to preserve life regardless of skin But its not, so here we are There’s a fire that burns The rage that’s filling out desperate lungs Our words used to turn into ash But now they ignite with our gasoline tongues With a strike of a match And this brand new epiphany We’re alive once again But this time not so subtly Listen, I can use the same rhetoric as you And I can make the words fit Make the words fit my agenda too O death now where are thy plagues? O death now where is thy sting? O death now where is thy grave? It awaits all our enemies Let's give ‘em some hell, kids Batten down all the hatches Now that we’re hell bent On proving we won’t be silenced This is our chance It’s our only hope The time is right now for them to see their kingdom fall For all of my sons And my daughters I promise to do my part in The slaughter Violence begets violence Begin
7.
Filth 04:25
Anchors away Reporting live this destitution and misery Scrolling like the blind Our days are measured in consumption rates That feed our need for the dying The damage ideation The breaking and the fall The lie that we deserve this When we deserve nothing at all In times of desperation Our backs against the wall Surrender to the culprit Destroyer of the world Everything at once isn’t anything at all We weren’t meant to see every second, every flaw Every suicide and shooting, mass or one off kills So bury me in endlessness of cheap exciting thrill Certain death with every click, perpetually numb Biding time, the sun will rise to try again tomorrow This constitutes a sickness, a masquerade of filth That catapults my wandering mind into the lie We’re not alright Wash me in blood of The latest wars and the gossip The fashion and the obsession Just give us some sensation This is the final call Who wants a shot at their infamy Don’t forget to smile for the camera now Or the bullet from the fucking pigs Have we gone to far This has spread like a fatal disease Don't forget to choke down the pill that is The pride of the American Dream

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released April 21, 2023

Written and performed by Alex Eilers
Additional vocals on "Malice & The Fire" by Jake Huhn
Recorded and mixed by Addison Eilers at Analog Time Machine
Mastered by Brad Boatright at Audiosiege

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Funeral Language Indianapolis, Indiana

Funeral Language is the project of multi-instrumentalist Alex Eilers from Indianapolis, IN. Drawing inspiration from 2000s era metalcore bands like The Bled, Misery Signals, and Norma Jean, Funeral Language delivers pummeling riffs, pleading screams, and panic chords with urgency and poise. ... more

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